I know I haven’t written on my blog for a while. It’s just that there is a big change that’s happening in my life right now and I just want everything confirmed before I spill the beans, so to speak.
And so it is…
Mommyhood, round 2.
It’s not as if Round 1 is done. Heck, it’ll never be done even after my daughter begins her own adventures as a wife and mom. Which won’t be in the near future.
Anyways, going back, this is quite a surprise for me. Hubby and I didn’t plan–weren’t really planning–on having another baby, not so soon. Surprise, surprise, here he/she is.
But unlike the first time that I was more excited than nervous, this time it’s the opposite. So many factors affect my situation, actually:
1. I was almost sold to the idea that we were only going to have 1 child. Zee’s turning 5 this year and she’s now going to regular school. Which means a whole chunk of our budget goes to her.
2. We’re really working around a fairly tight budget. While some may argue that having a combined gross income of PHP40,000 per month is fair enough, I dunno, it seems not enough for us. We do allot a few thousand for savings, but groceries, utilities, laundry, credit payments, insurance, and tuition, not to mention our daily transportation and lunch money (for hubby and me) eat up our budget. And tax, effin’ tax.
By the way, during our latest trip to the grocery, 2 paper bags filled with my child’s milk, cereals, food and snacks, diapers (for back-up, since we’re trying to completely toilet-train her), and toiletries cost us more than PHP900.
3. I’m not doing sidelines/raket for the meantime. All my jobs on the side were purely referral. This year, there’s quite a shortage–no, there’s none at all–of sidelines to do. Last year, those helped me with a few things. Now, there’s none in sight. I may try looking for part-time jobs online; I do hope there are some that are “preggy-friendly”.
4. So with a presently limited budget, imagine to insert monthly pre-natal check-ups, medicines, and what-have-you in the list of expenses. I do have a health card, that can be a bit of help, but still, there are things that my card can’t cover.
5. And by next year, all expenses will be doubled. Because there will be 2 little tykes in the house. Milk, diapers, vitamins, vaccinations, and eventually tuition. Everything times 2. Whoa.
To be honest, I almost got depressed in the early weeks of my second pregnancy. Yeah, typical me, I worry too much. But hubby assured me and told me that this wouldn’t happen if God didn’t want us to have baby #2. Maybe He probably thought it was time for us… and that we can overcome the challenges that come with it.
That’s why I’m keeping this verse from Proverbs in mind, always: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6, NIV)
Of course, I’d also have to work doubly hard and find more ways to augment my present income (we both are). Hopefully I’ll stumble upon something soon, one that I can do while being able to keep my day job.
Quite a long post for today. Sorry, I think these are all the bottled-up feelings I’ve had since last month. Well, wish me luck in the coming months. 🙂